My way to mecklenburg vorpommern

Dear Hans,

I actually don't know if I should comment on your blogpost or if these are just texts without connection. I do agree though with the fact that Berlin gives you the freedom of anonymity. Berlin is a place where you can basically do whatever you want with or without company. Right now I am in the train to neubrandenburg with my bike. I will cycle to genzkow. Actually I am really tired and hungry right now and I want coffee. Did you notice that the autumn is there now? Summer is finally over and the leafs are falling down already. The end of the year will come.so quick and then its already a year ago that we came to Berlin and this horrible news about my mum reached me/is. Sometimes I am afraid that time will.just roll down the hill and nothing will change about me or about the sadness about my mum. Then I feel pretty hopeless for the future.
Last night you texted me that you feel so sad. I wish I could do or say something to make you feel better, but I cant because I am part of the source of your sadness. Do you still fell any hope right now. Are you happy to be away from Berlin?
The only thing I would tell you to do is to go back to Belgium once in a while to see your friends. I feel guilty that I dragged you to Berlin and then left in a very chaotic way.
This week has been actually quite productive. I started to have a new routine, on sunday I sit down and fill.in my calendar with everything I have to.do this week. It makes my life very easy because I can look at every day and know what I am going. I feel more relaxed and could already make a lot of doctor appointments and met friends because I planned days ahead. So.you could say I started to work on myself already. Did you change anything in your life yet? Ach I feel not so poetic in this german train with these people in here :)
Later more, I think.more pictures from nature mainly :)
Love you
Jule